I Think I found Something..

So far this drug has been very effective for me. I have been doing a lot of research lately about weight loss and this new drug im taking, and found out being a drug that works by affecting the brain… it is very benign. I have spoken with several different girls on a couple of forums who have used it, and only a few said they experienced mild cases of nausea, but no increase in depression or anxiety. This is very promising information and has my hopes as high as they have been in years. Could I have possibly found a drug that works for me?, That I don’t despise taking?
It would be a relief to finally find something that works for me. I have read cookbooks that claim if you follow their program you will lose weight. Listened to sleep tapes that told me by simply “plugging in” at night, you will experience weight loss. I also have read several Aromatherapy books, self-hypnosis books all geared toward expressing how important it is to be skinny. Non of these worked, however I have learned a lot in the process to lose weight.
My journey will continue until I complete my objective, or until I go crazy avoiding all my favorite foods and eventually crack!!! J still helps me with shopping because he understands me. Trust me, I know how lucky I am to have any form of support, especially a friend like him.
I Intend on reaching my goal…No Matter What!!!!!

Back On Track…

I was reluctant to continue blogging because I have been really depressed throughout the end of July. I stopped taking the remainder of my phentermine I had. I was also hesitant to begin taking this new drug I ordered online called Acomplia.

I received my Acomplia and have been taking it on a steady basis for the past 2 weeks. My appetite has really gone down, more so then when I was taking Phentermine. Over the past 2 weeks, I have officially lost 3 pds!!!! Yayyy!

I am actually becoming confident about this medication because I am yet to see any real side affects (cross your fingers for me:). This is all happening later then I was hoping. At this rate MAYBE I can lose 16 more before the Wedding!! (I wish) I also decided to use my new AMEX card to celebrate this small milestone and I went shopping with my best friend J. We went to the mall and I realized how much I hate shopping in such a public place.

For one, all the stores use skinny models. That just drove me insane. They weren’t the bone-thin “regular” models, but the ones that are called “plus-size models”, ones that weigh like 120 or 140, which is by no means a heavy girl, if you ask me. I definitely wasn’t going to look like that in my dress! However I bought some clothes that I feel really comfortable in and it turned out to be a very uplifting day. Maybe I will reach my goal by the 27th of September after all.
Update coming soooooon!

Acomplia

Thanks for the suggestions. Some good ideas! Again, it's greatly greatly appreciated:)
I've been hearing a lot about Acomplia, it does the same thing as Phentermine, but without the side effects, which I really don't like.
I'm not sure, whether or not I'll finish the Phentermine I have left, but I decided to place an order for Acomplia, as I really need to lose that weight, and fast...
Licensed-rx added American Express, which is great, because I just got my new card, so it was the initiation purchase...
The delivery is basically the same as it was for Phentermine, so I think I'll receive it fast.
Other than that, I'm really getting used to my healthier diet. My good friend offered to do the shopping for me, because I was still a bit uncomfortable going to public places...
Next time I'll do it myself. (Thank you J for being so supportive and understanding... You're the best!:)
Anyway, will be updating you!

I just realized, I have only 2 months to lose almost 30lbs.

It's my cousin's wedding, and I bought this dress, as a suggestion I picked on some forum- to be my new goal.
I'm really nervous about that! What if it doesn't fit? I'll be at that wedding, with all the hot looking friends of my cousin, and all my family, (in a weird way, everyone who's not my close family, meaning, my parents, my brother and myself) are anything but overweight.
If I fail, it would be terrible. They feel very comfortable to point out other peoples flaws...
The Phentermine is working great, but I really am starting to hate the side affects. I'm way too speedy, and I almost don't sleep ever since I started to take them.
It's very frustrating, because I was putting my hopes to that, and I'm worried I will not reach my goal.
Does anyone know about a medication that also works? I really need that!

Thanks, but still...

The Tuesday experience got me thinking. Although I really appreciate everybody's support, online and of my close friends, it really got to me. I know I shouldn't mind people like that.
But the thought that I have no control whatsoever over that, and that I will come cross with others of his kind, (unfortunately, this wasn't the first, and probably wasn't the last time, it's just that it was the worst timing possible), freaks me out.
About two weeks ago, when I went food-shopping, people at the store were staring at me,( because large people are not supposed to eat vegetables or something,) some kids even pointed at me.
I was then able to ignore that, because, well, let's face it, it's not that I got to this weight overnight. But the fact that I was just starting to feel better about myself, and lost 4lbs, and the guy was really acting like he was interested, really destroyed everything.
I'm actually kinda anxious about going to the store, I'm trying to avoid that for the last couple of days. Which is a really bad thing, because at a certain point I will have to eat something, so I'll go back to what I used to do- order from some junk food place. And even though I know I won't eat much of that, (thanks to the pills), I'd rather put foods with at least some nutritional value to my body, than eat the stuff that got me in this situation.

Birthday Party from HELL

I started the diet. Finally. I was very up-beat for most of the beginning of the week, lost another 2lbs, managed to stick to the diet, even did some exercise.
Then, came Tuesday. Another birthday party. So I went there with a couple of friends, (the birthday
was of a non-close friend of mine).
And there was this guy, pretty good looking, that was standing there, looking at me for a while, so I approached him with my new gained confidence (a great trade, isn't it? lose weight, gain confidence).
He seemed very interested, was smiling a lot, made compliments about my hair, and told me I look great. At a certain point, I got up from where we were sitting, and when I got back, just a few minutes later, I found him sitting with some friends of his, (a skinny girl on his lap and a guy sitting next to him), and heard him saying "yeah, that cow was just moaning and moaning, I didn't really know how to get rid of her".
Needless to say, I was devastated. When they realized I heard that, the girl started laughing, and the other guy gave me this look of "what did you expect?!".I didn't know what to do. If I'd go, it'll look pathetic, and staying is way too embarrassing. Luckily, my friends were just about to leave anyway, and the birthday girl was about to kick everyone out too.
It was terrible!!!

Got my meds!!!

I received my meds on Friday, and I'm starting the diet Monday.
I'm so excited!!! I've done some more reading, about healthy diets, and on how to combine
some exercise, in my oh so busy day...
I'm still doing the Mui-Thai, but I feel like I need to do more.
Totally counting on the Phentermine to give me energy for that. I am so grateful for that website!
The shipping did take a bit long, true, I could have started sooner, but it took them less than a week, which is comforting, given the fact the delivery time listed was 8-16 business days...
Guess I was lucky!
I decided to only start tomorrow, so I'll be updating soon.
Hold your fingers crossed!

I lost 2lbs!!! On 4th of July weekend!!!

You wouldn't believe how great this weekend turned out to be!
I'm SOOOO happy! First, the BB-Q went awesome, I didn't even mind the aroma...
I ate my healthy, low calorie food,and not much of it- because I just didn't want to! After spending all day with my family, I went to a party, (which I haven't done in ages) and I was the last one to go home! I had so much energy!
It did give me this dry feeling in my mouth, which was pretty annoying, but it's worth it.
Could it be that I found the “easy diet”? I tried so many times before, and it never worked for me, because I was getting too lazy to move, and as I've mentioned – most of the problem in dieting, is that you get hungry just because of the fact you're not supposed to think of food.
This Phentermine thing really helps! I placed an order right now, and I can't wait for it to arrive!

P.S

Thanks to the wonders of technology, I was able to place an order on 02:00AM, the website is 24/7 ..

A very important quality, when you're really eager to start...

Well...Some good news

Diet. Terrifying word. It's funny when people talk about easy diets, because just the fact you're ON a diet, makes you hungry. I only started a second ago- and I'm starving, just because I know I'm not supposed to think of food.
And healthy food- I don't like it. Not only that I constantly think of food, the fact that it's low calorie foods, it makes me tired. How on earth are you supposed to exercise, which is also something you must do in order to burn the fat and lose weight, if you literally have no power whatsoever?
The good news, is that a friend of mine apparently ordered from the website, and she gave me some of the Phentermine. I took it in the morning, and it seems to be helpful. I don't feel hungry, I have energy, It's Fourth of July weekend, let's see how it goes...
Wish me luck people!

Yikes!

Well, I've measured myself....
I'm 5'4", and I weigh 227 lbs.... It's not all that shocking to me, but I was kinda hoping for better...
I am hoping for fast weight loss, so I'll do whatever I can, because at this point, I'm so desperate!
I went food shopping the other day with my friend, we bought low calorie foods, and healthy stuff, like vegetables (a lot of green ones).
I'm thinking of getting an actual diet plan, because it just seems right to eat healthy, not just for the sake of weight loss. I'm not sure about going on a low carb diet again, but I might try something...

I've found this online pharmacy that sells Phentermine. Does anybody know anything about it?
It looks very good, but I'm not sure, I've never tried any medication for weight loss. But then again, maybe that is what I was doing wrong?

This weekend was bad. I keep eating more and more.
Now i discovered that I can eat next to the computer, so that doesn't help me much now.
It's very frustrating, you think that you got something right, and you fail again.
I decided this time would be different, so I'm not going to let that stop me...
I have a friend who offered to help me with food-shopping, so I can start with a low calorie diet.
Nothing official, just stuff I learned online.
For now, I don't really have a weight loss plan, but I'll get there. Found some diet recipes, that look good, and as I said, I'm not giving up!!

Progress, I guess

I know I'm supposed to write about my diet, but I found that spending time on the computer keeps me away form the fridge, for now... (How about that for some weight loss tips? ;)
I found that on some weight loss forums, you can get some diet tips, you can share weight loss plans, so I guess I'm im a good place. You actually have support online for that!
The good news is that I have my Mui Thai class later today, And I've been very good- I'm away from the fridge! (Maybe that's what my friend had in mind when he suggested the blog thing- that I'll spend more time away from the kitchen... :)
I'll get myself some diet plan, it seems like just eating less is not enough, because I eat less but in higher frequency...

you have to see this!!!!!!!

My day is great now, thanks to this video!
Keeps my mind off of food:)

We're Different

How many of us fat people, tried the Atkins Diet?
Do you guys know that he was never fat? Never? So easy to say, without being overweight, "eat low carbohydrate and high protein foods, and you'll lose weight."
The problem with fat people, is that this is exactly what we eat! Our affection to carbohydrates is what got us in this situation to begin with!
Of course, there's the whole genetic thing as well, but that too comes down to that- that's what our parents ate, and loved eating.
We need a real diet, something that a normal fat person used, which worked!
I had a diet plan, actually, a few diet plans, for fast weight loss, easy weight loss, but the problem
obviously was never solved, at least not permanently. I want to lose weight, and I want to lose weight fast!
Too many ideas come for us come from people that aren't us, that can't understand our predicament because they have never been us, and their only interest is money, not help.
Sure, the Atkins Diet, and other diets of the sort, helped some people, the ones I know were just slightly overweight, and they would have probably lose that weight anyway, without some specialized plan developed by "experts."
Any thoughts?

Here it Goes...

OK.
So my name is Sam, and I'm large. You can call it whatever you want, Big, Fat, Overweight, Big Boned, Obese (or as one of my friends like to call it- fluffy and cuddly).
Doesn't really matter.
I've been like that for all my life.
I've tried everything... All the diets, signed up for the gym, for some trendy classes, like Yoga, Pilates and Boxing. (Now I'm trying Mui Thai, if you want to know. Quite fun actually:)
I tried eating disorders for a while, too. That didn't last long, was too obligating and not even half as fun as the Mui Thai.
My friend, who was a chain smoker suggested I'd write a blog about the progress, because that helped him a lot with quitting smoking.
I fully intend to share my past experience, (the stuff I try to do now, too) and hope to learn from others as well.
Anyway, nice to meet you all, I'm going to do some blog reading now, so enjoy!