The Tuesday experience got me thinking. Although I really appreciate everybody's support, online and of my close friends, it really got to me. I know I shouldn't mind people like that.
But the thought that I have no control whatsoever over that, and that I will come cross with others of his kind, (unfortunately, this wasn't the first, and probably wasn't the last time, it's just that it was the worst timing possible), freaks me out.
About two weeks ago, when I went food-shopping, people at the store were staring at me,( because large people are not supposed to eat vegetables or something,) some kids even pointed at me.
I was then able to ignore that, because, well, let's face it, it's not that I got to this weight overnight. But the fact that I was just starting to feel better about myself, and lost 4lbs, and the guy was really acting like he was interested, really destroyed everything.
I'm actually kinda anxious about going to the store, I'm trying to avoid that for the last couple of days. Which is a really bad thing, because at a certain point I will have to eat something, so I'll go back to what I used to do- order from some junk food place. And even though I know I won't eat much of that, (thanks to the pills), I'd rather put foods with at least some nutritional value to my body, than eat the stuff that got me in this situation.
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