I Think I found Something..

So far this drug has been very effective for me. I have been doing a lot of research lately about weight loss and this new drug im taking, and found out being a drug that works by affecting the brain… it is very benign. I have spoken with several different girls on a couple of forums who have used it, and only a few said they experienced mild cases of nausea, but no increase in depression or anxiety. This is very promising information and has my hopes as high as they have been in years. Could I have possibly found a drug that works for me?, That I don’t despise taking?
It would be a relief to finally find something that works for me. I have read cookbooks that claim if you follow their program you will lose weight. Listened to sleep tapes that told me by simply “plugging in” at night, you will experience weight loss. I also have read several Aromatherapy books, self-hypnosis books all geared toward expressing how important it is to be skinny. Non of these worked, however I have learned a lot in the process to lose weight.
My journey will continue until I complete my objective, or until I go crazy avoiding all my favorite foods and eventually crack!!! J still helps me with shopping because he understands me. Trust me, I know how lucky I am to have any form of support, especially a friend like him.
I Intend on reaching my goal…No Matter What!!!!!

Back On Track…

I was reluctant to continue blogging because I have been really depressed throughout the end of July. I stopped taking the remainder of my phentermine I had. I was also hesitant to begin taking this new drug I ordered online called Acomplia.

I received my Acomplia and have been taking it on a steady basis for the past 2 weeks. My appetite has really gone down, more so then when I was taking Phentermine. Over the past 2 weeks, I have officially lost 3 pds!!!! Yayyy!

I am actually becoming confident about this medication because I am yet to see any real side affects (cross your fingers for me:). This is all happening later then I was hoping. At this rate MAYBE I can lose 16 more before the Wedding!! (I wish) I also decided to use my new AMEX card to celebrate this small milestone and I went shopping with my best friend J. We went to the mall and I realized how much I hate shopping in such a public place.

For one, all the stores use skinny models. That just drove me insane. They weren’t the bone-thin “regular” models, but the ones that are called “plus-size models”, ones that weigh like 120 or 140, which is by no means a heavy girl, if you ask me. I definitely wasn’t going to look like that in my dress! However I bought some clothes that I feel really comfortable in and it turned out to be a very uplifting day. Maybe I will reach my goal by the 27th of September after all.
Update coming soooooon!

Acomplia

Thanks for the suggestions. Some good ideas! Again, it's greatly greatly appreciated:)
I've been hearing a lot about Acomplia, it does the same thing as Phentermine, but without the side effects, which I really don't like.
I'm not sure, whether or not I'll finish the Phentermine I have left, but I decided to place an order for Acomplia, as I really need to lose that weight, and fast...
Licensed-rx added American Express, which is great, because I just got my new card, so it was the initiation purchase...
The delivery is basically the same as it was for Phentermine, so I think I'll receive it fast.
Other than that, I'm really getting used to my healthier diet. My good friend offered to do the shopping for me, because I was still a bit uncomfortable going to public places...
Next time I'll do it myself. (Thank you J for being so supportive and understanding... You're the best!:)
Anyway, will be updating you!

I just realized, I have only 2 months to lose almost 30lbs.

It's my cousin's wedding, and I bought this dress, as a suggestion I picked on some forum- to be my new goal.
I'm really nervous about that! What if it doesn't fit? I'll be at that wedding, with all the hot looking friends of my cousin, and all my family, (in a weird way, everyone who's not my close family, meaning, my parents, my brother and myself) are anything but overweight.
If I fail, it would be terrible. They feel very comfortable to point out other peoples flaws...
The Phentermine is working great, but I really am starting to hate the side affects. I'm way too speedy, and I almost don't sleep ever since I started to take them.
It's very frustrating, because I was putting my hopes to that, and I'm worried I will not reach my goal.
Does anyone know about a medication that also works? I really need that!

Thanks, but still...

The Tuesday experience got me thinking. Although I really appreciate everybody's support, online and of my close friends, it really got to me. I know I shouldn't mind people like that.
But the thought that I have no control whatsoever over that, and that I will come cross with others of his kind, (unfortunately, this wasn't the first, and probably wasn't the last time, it's just that it was the worst timing possible), freaks me out.
About two weeks ago, when I went food-shopping, people at the store were staring at me,( because large people are not supposed to eat vegetables or something,) some kids even pointed at me.
I was then able to ignore that, because, well, let's face it, it's not that I got to this weight overnight. But the fact that I was just starting to feel better about myself, and lost 4lbs, and the guy was really acting like he was interested, really destroyed everything.
I'm actually kinda anxious about going to the store, I'm trying to avoid that for the last couple of days. Which is a really bad thing, because at a certain point I will have to eat something, so I'll go back to what I used to do- order from some junk food place. And even though I know I won't eat much of that, (thanks to the pills), I'd rather put foods with at least some nutritional value to my body, than eat the stuff that got me in this situation.

Birthday Party from HELL

I started the diet. Finally. I was very up-beat for most of the beginning of the week, lost another 2lbs, managed to stick to the diet, even did some exercise.
Then, came Tuesday. Another birthday party. So I went there with a couple of friends, (the birthday
was of a non-close friend of mine).
And there was this guy, pretty good looking, that was standing there, looking at me for a while, so I approached him with my new gained confidence (a great trade, isn't it? lose weight, gain confidence).
He seemed very interested, was smiling a lot, made compliments about my hair, and told me I look great. At a certain point, I got up from where we were sitting, and when I got back, just a few minutes later, I found him sitting with some friends of his, (a skinny girl on his lap and a guy sitting next to him), and heard him saying "yeah, that cow was just moaning and moaning, I didn't really know how to get rid of her".
Needless to say, I was devastated. When they realized I heard that, the girl started laughing, and the other guy gave me this look of "what did you expect?!".I didn't know what to do. If I'd go, it'll look pathetic, and staying is way too embarrassing. Luckily, my friends were just about to leave anyway, and the birthday girl was about to kick everyone out too.
It was terrible!!!

Got my meds!!!

I received my meds on Friday, and I'm starting the diet Monday.
I'm so excited!!! I've done some more reading, about healthy diets, and on how to combine
some exercise, in my oh so busy day...
I'm still doing the Mui-Thai, but I feel like I need to do more.
Totally counting on the Phentermine to give me energy for that. I am so grateful for that website!
The shipping did take a bit long, true, I could have started sooner, but it took them less than a week, which is comforting, given the fact the delivery time listed was 8-16 business days...
Guess I was lucky!
I decided to only start tomorrow, so I'll be updating soon.
Hold your fingers crossed!